I went back and read this last post... I know that I try to be sarcastic and funny, but I would have to say that to whomever reading this blog and does not know me, they would think I was a jerk and a ditz. As for I really am, I am a woman seeking after God's will for my life. In two weeks I will be graduated from a 4 year University in three years, accomplished what I wanted to in college, have wonderful friends, and have no idea what I am doing or where I am going to be on day 15.
I have a feeling of loneliness, fear, sadness and the fact that I want to hide from the next phase of my life. I don't like feeling this way. I want to know now. I know that God is teaching me patience and to follow Him. I am trying I just need prayer. I have been praying all week for God to show me the desires of His heart. Allow my desires to be of Him and what He wants for me. I am struggling, I don't want to write this 15 page paper or study for the final. I want to sleep. I do not feel well. I have a sore throat and sinus crap... I do NOT have the swine flu.
I do need prayer and a little support right now as it is getting closer and closer to the end of school and the beginning of a new section of my life. I am breathing everyday that I will wake up one morning and doors will be open and the grass will be green and this HUGE peace will come over me. I know that God is taking care of things. I know that He will not give me more than I can handle. YET even though i KNOW these things believing them can make a difference, Starting today... I believe.
Girl on a mission.
