Crazy how many options are in front of me...

So I just joined this book study on Boundaries. I think this is much needed for my life. How to obtain healthy boundaries and still function as a normal human being with exercise, plenty of sleep, good food, and a quiet time with God.

It's funny how come across these things and how God guides me t the paths that I am on. Rule number one, "No!" should be in my vocabulary. Let's try. no, No, NO, NO! Ok, I think I am getting better at this. Rule number two, Don't take what sounds good, wait for what is the best for me and then say yes. Rule number three, Don't be afraid to hurt anyones feelings. (Do not be a people pleaser).

Those are the big rules at the moment. More to come I am sure. I have pushed my limit this weekend with everything that went on and now I am recovering. I lived at the church- and now I need a little time to recover. So that is my plan. I got to hang out with Chris while Paul was out of town and it makes me enjoy this family even more.

I have come to realize that I really want to do more college ministry stuff at my church. Be apart of it not just an outsider. So now that I am reorganizing and reworking a few things my life just might work- but of course with boundaries. So we shall see what happens.

Pray for me so that my boundaries will be healthy ones and that my NOs come out with ease.

-girl on a mission

Monday.

So it's Monday. The start of a new week. I am working today at the studio and then have a dance lesson tonight to get my hips into gear. I have come to figure out it is not as easy to move my hips as I thought. And as redundant as it can be -I have no core muscles. Lame. So sit ups and crunches here we come. :)

I got to hang out with Shari yesterday after church. We watched Letters to Juliet... such a good movie. Total chick flick- but I loved it. Cheesy for sure and you know how much I like cheese. haha
We would have watched another chick flick but the disk wasn't in its holder so then we proceeded to watch NCIS instead. Which it has become one of my favorite shows.

Now I am trying to sit still and allow God to talk to me... instead of controlling everything myself. Would I do that!? - Never.

Well, yeah it's me.

Pray for me to let go, release my strong hold and allow God to use me. I'm in the way, so get me out!

Peace.

Cleanse day 1

Today started a journey to get rid of all of the processed food in my body. I have a headache already. Go figure. I think it is a mental thing. I have a headache that is mental I think- cause i can't have things. And I am trying to figure out my relationship with food. I know it is emotional, yes I like to eat when I am emotional. So now I am embarking on a seven day journey to get the toxins out of my body and allow me to grow and get better!

So start praying that I can stick with it! I want a new relationship with foods and sugar and eat because I need fuel not because I'm bored and need something to do.

Yay for water! Got to go drink some more...

:)

Favorite Flowers...

So today is the big party for my boss at the sudio. She is trying to rent out the other few desks and areas she has available. It has been kinda stressful up until this moment where now the food is arriving and the guest will also be arriving soon. I will be here for the first hour then I head to a dance lesson then back to help with anything in the middle and then I am free to go home. YAY! It has been a long week. I even had like 10 hours of sleep last night and I am exhausted. I am going to have to work on having a set time I get up. That has been known to help with the body. So as I sit here I am in the aroma of gardenias. I would have to say they are making it to the top of my favorites list. I have also come to realize when I went to pick them up that I truly am in love with flowers. I love them- all of them. The smell, their beauty. I used to be not so in love with flowers. I guess I always put flowers and the sentiments behind them together. Why? I don't know. I am sad that I have not truly appreciated their beauty until today, when 75 gardenias surround me and their smell of sweet peace consumes the room.

Yes, I am in love with flowers.

What is your favorite?? :)

20 something...

Why is that everyone tells you that College is the best time in you life. I can tell you why.

One: You have built in friends. People you live with, the person who sits next to you in class, dorm community, campus life.

Two: You are in the "real" world but not.

Three: You don't really worry about the balance of your life. You're young, you stay up to all hours of the night, and you could care less about next semester till it gets there.

Four: Your parents still take care of you (they always will but more so now)

So, YAY! You get a piece of paper that says you are educated and now can handle yourself in the real word. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???

Now, you can figure out the rest of your life. You have ambitions and want to do great things, yet because you don't have 5 years of experience you can't get a job. And what you want to do, you can't do cause you need money, you don't have. And your not supposed to go into debt so you don't borrow money. Which then leads to a minimum wage job which gives you experience in a job you don't want. Then for the rest of your life you try to get to the job you can't have unless you know someone that might know someone who will give you a chance. This is a viscous cycle.

So at the end of the day, network. It will be your best friend for life.

OK, that's the end of my venting for today.

It's my birthday!

It's Friday, and today I am officially 23. Weird. My sister pointed out at my mom's party this weekend that we are the ages of when my mom had us (with april and I switched of course). And yet none of the girls actually have kids. I take care of kids so technically I think I am the closest to grandkids we are going to come for a while.

Chelsea, Julie and Shari took me out on Wednesday when I got back from Texas. They took me to Boco de Bebo which is an Italian family style restaurant. It was excellent. Then we went to a salsa club! It was AWESOME! I had such a good time! I can't wait to go back!

Today on the schedule: RELAX, hang out with Zanne, do some media stuff at the church, eat dinner with the family, open my present from my mom and then hang out with my sister tonight!

Excellent day!